I struggled today. I struggled with children who did NOT listen. I struggled with anger. It was the kind of day where you walk into another room and scream into a pillow. I felt unheard. I asked little ears to do simple things, they were ignored. I was frustrated. I said things I shouldn't have, I felt awful. But, I am not alone. I know other mothers who feel that way sometimes. I have a God that promised he would never leave me, or forsake me. Even on the days when I feel defeated by life and by my children. I am never alone. Even on the days when I don't deserve a love bigger than me. I am never alone. Ever.
So, I will pray for strength, forgiveness, grace, mercy and compassion. On the days when it feels impossible to love, I will love because, I was given a love that often, I do not deserve. I am thankful for that. I will remind myself that, I was called for this life, for better and for worse. I was given these little people for a time, they are not mine forever and, I will treat them as the precious gifts that they are. I will be grateful, even when it feels impossible.
I love them to the moon and back. As much as the stars. Forever.
They love you, too, even when you have bad days. Just think about how much mom and dad loved the four of us when we were downright awful. And there were four of us. Double the amount of un-listening ears... And think about God and the amount of children HE has. WAY more un-listening ears! ;) You're allowed bad days, especially when you ask forgiveness and apologize. That's the most important part. And that you feel so bad about it. Love you bunches!
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